The day before D-day

Officially, D-day for this baby is tomorrow.

I've gone through so many thoughts about it that I don't know if I am scared or not anymore.

I spent all day yesterday on my feet frantically nesting - let's just say our pantry contents are basically alphabetised now. 

Hospital bags are packed. I say 'bags' because it turns out you can be in there for up to 5 days where we live, and that is a lot of changes of baby clothes, pyjamas, nappies (you have to provide your own), etc. Also we were encouraged to bring a bag of snacks, heat packs, drinks and whatever else we want during labour. Some people bring their own swiss ball (!), books, laptop for music... and so on.

This pumpkin likes to move. Health professionals laugh when they see its ginormous movements as if it's trying to break out of my abdomen, ala that Alien movie. I feel and visibly see every bum-wriggle and leg stretches that protude inches from my belly then go back in. (I'm guessing there are some long legs in there).

It doesn't really feel like anything is going to change. I feel like normal old me, in my safe little world with my husband, cleaning the house top to bottom for something I can't even really get my head around. I thought I would LOVE being in the nursery but it feels weird in there until we meet it's occupant!

This man is going to be the best dad. He's so fun and energetic.

It's amazing how much you can know someone who isn't born yet. Our baby gets excited (think major bum wiggling) when it hears Calum's voice, goes to sleep when I sing to it, and calms down from a wriggle-attack if I rub it's back (through my belly, obviously). They say babies in the womb can learn songs that are repeated to them, so I bet this little sausage is going to respond to daddy singing Edelweiss as he has done throughout the pregnancy! You couldn't miss that rumbly voice anywhere.

Pregnancy has been hard on us. I guess it could always be worse, but I don't even know if I would be here without modern medicine. In all of that, I'm so so grateful to be growing a human. I'm more convinced than ever that life is no accident, and every baby is a miracle whether it gets born or not. Anyone who thinks foetus' are just a bunch of tissue without human qualities, should totally get pregnant. You will be AMAZED.

Anyway, D-day is tomorrow, but it's not uncommon to go late on your first baby, so... I might be back before we have a 3rd family member, and I'll remember to take pictures of the nursery as soon as poss :)